I’ve been taking some baby steps since 2 weeks ago.. well, I know I’ve been taking it since I started my tumblr.. let’s just say that this baby step is a leap..not a step.. Maybe I should change the title into baby leaps, not baby steps.. =p
Anw, although the decision has been taken, still I feel so uneasy, in doubts, and most of all selfish. I know that this is what both of us must going through, it’s not an easy one and I pity him more than I pity myself, even after all the bad things he had done to me.. Some people might think I’m the right one here and some might think I’m the baddie, still who knows the best?
The decision is not a final decision, it’s a reason for avoiding problem, for delaying the final decision, to ask for more time to think.. I know I’m the worst, but I will stay true to my promise until the end.
I let myself being freed, yet I couldn’t let my heart free..